That's right. I could be enjoying one of my favorite things at the moment, sleep, but I'm not. I'm sitting here typing and watching the sun rise. AGAIN. I'm not worried about anything, yet I cannot seem to shut my mind off. (Thinking and worrying are not the same thing to me.) I went to bed at 1:30 this morning and was up by 5:30. That just isn't healthy.
My problem is I think too much. I'm constantly going over new ideas in my head. I keep wondering if there is something more I can do to promote my books. I think I ate too much salad dressing last night. I wonder if sleeping without a bra just this once will make my breasts sag. Then it jumps back to my books. Do people really enjoy what I write just because I do? I'm a reader too, do I count? I write because I cannot imagine not writing. It's simply who I am, it's what I do. Am I wasting my time? WAS that salad dressing too much? Should I be on meds? LOL Why didn't the sleeping pill work and why can't I rest?!
F***ing insomnia!
2 comments:
I thoroughly enjoy your books. I'm anxiously awaiting your next Lilith adventure. Plus when I visited your coming soon section I saw that you've got another new book in the works....Let no man take from you what you know. You know you enjoy writing, you know you have a fan base...your books are selling and positive reviews are coming in...Sometimes the hardest person to convenience is self.
Have you tried music... There are cd's out that help you relax and sleep. When I was pregnant I started using them to help me relax...I'd fall asleep like in 5 - 10 minutes most times. Although there were times when I'd have to use a chant coupled with the music to quite my thoughts.
Mona
Thank you so much, Mona. It's comments like this that inspire me to keep picking up my pencil. I really cannot tell you how much it means to me.
You're right about convencing myself. I'm still so surprised when I hear that I have a fan base. It's not that I think I totally suck or anything. LOL I'm just humbled and truly touched to hear that people enjoy what I do.
Thanks for the suggestion about the music. It reminded me that I have some hypnosis CDs somewhere to help me sleep. I haven't had to use them in a whie and had fogotten them.
Thanks for the response:)
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